This is how I feel most of the time.
It's ridiculous, I know.
Such is my my head.
Full of contradictions.
It occurred to me yesterday - this whole complex idea of making people be free - is one of the really big things I need to learn in this life. Up there with We Are All One. And Patience. There are subtle colors and nuances - but also intricate turns and dead-ends!, to this idea, and I am just beginning to find my way through them.
The problem with just letting others be free to be miserable is that I believe that if we could erase what went wrong - in children, all folks oppressed, all folks who were mistreated as a child and who now are dis-eased with harmful tendencies or behaviors, all folks who are down-trodden and under tyranny, and replaced it with enough love, kindness, understanding, and freedom, the hurts would be gone.
I truly believe that people hurt others because they are hurting themselves. What other reason is there?
There is a really subtle - maybe even abstract - thought that sponsors another thought that says that yes, people are free to live under tyranny or bondage (in whatever form they choose), but others are also free to point out another way - others that desire A Change In The World. In collective consciousness. That maybe it's alright to be a guiding voice for others who may be looking to free themselves. Yes, Truth can be found anywhere. You can find it listening to the wind, on the radio being belted out by Tina Turner, while watching a boxing match, and an infinite amount of places. Some of us (yours truly) find whole bunches of inspiration on the 'net (sidebar).
Truth is funny that way. Eventually we can't miss it.
I just really don't see a problem with wanting and helping to change the world. By linking with others who share your feelings. It's not an apocalypse or cataclysm I'm speaking of, but rather a shift in society's consciousness - an evolution of society.
I am thinking that perhaps it's possible.
Societies evolve, don't they? Surely they do. Any anthropologists out there? Surely they shift, and change, and dip, and meld with another, and influence and are influenced by, and evolve. Probably it relates to the Powers That Be at the moment. In regard to who is in political power, and who is speaking up - the Abe Lincolns, and Rosa Parks, and Adolph Hitlers, and the comings and goings of the world.
Yes now that I think of it, of course society changes. It has changed thousands of times!
It is not my intent to proselytize. But who among us wouldn't want to experience more joy, more compassion, more peace, more patience, more love, and more hope?
I feel like I sound like (big grin) that I'm trying to start a new religion. Heaven Forbid! Rest assured, that's not my intent.
It's just that I am entering into a place in my life where I am beginning to believe that a different state of the world is possible. Not according to my own rules of "making them be free". As appealing as that simple idea is.
But something more regular. Softer. Like a newspaper article. Like going on the Dr. Phil show and then putting short clips on YouTube. Like demonstrating skills while you're in the park dealing with tired and hungry children. Like listening to a sister-in-law complain with kindness and understanding. Like mending some of your own hurts by being the interpreter between your child and your mother.
And maybe even like speaking your Truth by writing in a silly ol' blog.
You know what they say.
Change begins with me.