It was the "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!" kind, not the "aaack!" kind.
The pain of being a person of words of the readable sort is that when you write something that you're really attached to (i'm being mild because it cuts so deep) is that when your tot comes and turns off your pc while you're up to your shoulders in personal truth, it is really, truly, amazingly devastating.
i'm going to lick my wounds for a few minutes....