Monday, April 23, 2007

Writing

I've been thinking about my writing on the blogs lately. Mostly here, as Ordinary Life Magic is mostly family history, and I don't ramble on very often.
I think I started to really feel comfortable with writing here when I read about Soule Mama's book. She put her blog into a book, via Blurb. Brilliant!
Oh yes. A project that definitely that speaks to my heart.
I never really got into the babybooks, though I did try. It just seemed sort of forced, if you see. Now I understand why, as the things I hold dear are much different than a first birthday card, or stickers decorating a picture of a tot in the bathtub. That just doesn't resonate with me.
The desire to blog/keep track may be a mortality issue. I thought at first that I perhaps want my children to know my mind, to maybe understand why I made some of the choices that I did. But that isn't quite it. That seems to beg their approval or forgiveness for mistakes. I'm not asking for that.
It's more important that they just know that I am crazy about them, and that I am trying to change my thoughts around to better honor and support who they are.
I've been full of words my whole life. Sometimes they come out of my mouth when I'm so filled up with them I just have to explode. Always they are swimming through my head, sometimes disjointed and random, at others connecting and clicking together, demanding that I sit down for a while and try to set them free.
So as I'm becoming more comfortable with writing - the rhyme and reason- I've decided to just celebrate this part of myself. It is, after all, a huge part of who I am.

3 comments:

Professor Howdy said...

Hello!
Very good posting.
Thank you - Have a good day!!!

Stephanie Ozenne said...

"It's more important that they just know that I am crazy about them, and that I am trying to change my thoughts around to better honor and support who they are."

I think this is so important, and such a wonderful gift you're giving to your children. You're right - without recording your thoughts, they'll just get to know who you've become. Knowing that they motivated it can only make them feel important and, of course, very loved. (Though I'm sure they already do feel tons of love from you.)

I've never gotten into scrap booking, though I thought I would when I was pregnant with Emmett - I even bought a bunch of still-unused materials. I have made some digital photo books, though (that are printed and mailed to me). And I work very hard to get lots of information about the kids into the captions and stories on a few pages of text. Kind of a "highlights" of the blog I maintain for grandparents (not a homeschooling blog, just a blog of cute things the kids do).

My only suggestion, to best help your kids understand you when they're older, would be to keep track of your "highlight" posts. The most important stuff (like this one!), so they can get to them easily when they find themselves interested.

:)
Stephanie

PS - I've been reading your blogs on and off for a couple of weeks. I thought it was high time I let you know that I'm out here, and this post was a great one to do just that. But I'm a lurker by nature, so you probably won't hear much from me. Unless, of course, you need a cheerleader. :)

Stephanie said...

I wanted to clarify something-
I've always been at ease with my love for writing, what I mean when I said "becoming more comfortable" was that I've stopped fretting about being found by others to be too wordy or boring.
I just don't want to feel defensive about who/what I am.
Which is someone who "thinks with her fingers on the keyboard", as my friend Travis said. :)